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I keep forgetting my pictures at home
so I haven't scanned them yet
But they turned out alright
Nothing spectacular or anything
but at least they're crisp.
Only two pictures of the twenty four came out unfocused.
So I'm quite proud of myself.

I'm in photography class right now
my group's doing photoshop stuff, but I have all my pictures saved on another computer. And since I came late, I can't exactly go kick that other kid off of my computer.
So I'm kinda just slacking off this period. I have like twenty minutes left anyway.
Hurray.
(:

of this art-block.
it's been like a week since the first entry
but it's been going on for at least two months
and this is driving me nuts.

I'm taking a class at the art center, it starts at the end of march, so that'll be nice. It's mixed media, so it'll be more exploring mediums and stuff like that.
I really want to find the kind of art, and the style I really like and can do well.
=/
it's so hard for me.
I used to have style, and FLAVOUR in my art.
but I don't like it anymore.
And it's no good if I don't like it =/
so I'm exploring and trying to find a new one.
I pick up my pictures tommorow.
Hopefully I didn't totally screw them up xDDD
I'll scan them on Monday, because I don't have a scanner at home.
I can't waiitt
hopefully I'll have something good enough for my deviant art.
and if they're REALLY good, I'll blow up a couple and save them for my portfolio.
(:

Well I have to start working on a portfolio, because I know some people who waited untill grade 12 and screwed themselves over with essays and applications AND a portfolio.
So I decided to get a head start.
But since I'm in this "ugh, I don't feel like drawing" mood
I took my 35mmSLR camera for a walk, and shot a roll.
As soon as I get them developped, I'll scan them, and submit them if they're somewhat decent.
I'm a huuuge noob at photography, but I don't think I'm terrible or anything.
I'm keeping busy, is the big thing.
Keeping myself open to art, is the next.

Also when I got home I was playing with my camcorder
specifically the night vision settings
so I'm going to turn one of those pictures into a devid...
so I'll have SOMETHING on my page... xD

I'm having a problem.
I just deleted all of my deviations.
I just deleted all of my journal entries.

Nothing I draw or paint or take pictures of seems RIGHT anymore.
I'm having problems finding my personal style.
and nothing I've drawn in the past really reminds me of ME anymore, it just doesn't reflect ME. I don't even know if it ever did.
I'm trying to develop my style, but I just don't know how. I don't even know what kind of art I prefer.
I'm trying to expand my art horizons, I guess. I'm starting to get into photography, instead of the traditional art I was doing before, and I'm really hoping to get into painting again as well.
I used to think I was at least sort of good at art.
Now I just want to throw everything I've ever drawn away.



I'm starting fresh.


this journal and all my deviations...
well this website, I guess.
This website will record my "journey" to discover my own style.
or is it rediscover?
hm.
either way
this is how I'll keep track
it's going to be slow, but it'll be eventful, I'm sure.